This past one week has been a living nightmare for me...
The past one week has been a living nightmare for me which explained the deafening silence on the gram. My body broke down without warning. In fact I’m still trying to make sense of the wreck I was in. I couldn’t breathe. My body temperatures rose and plunged uncontrollably. I was coughing non stop and I was in so much pain.
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The worst blow was my mind. I was shrouded in a fog. I couldn’t focus on a thought for long and was led on a wild goose chase in my own mind. It’s scary just talking about it. I woke up every night in either cold sweat or a panic attack. My emotions were in a mess. Fear. Worry. Anxiety. Extreme sadness. They all came visiting.
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So was I under a lot of stress? I guess so. Who isn't? Did something major happen at work or at home? Nope. But it is what it is.
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The good news is I’m feeling a lot better already (thank God!). And I’m grateful for the space you’ve given me to go silent and recuperate. As with every experience - especially the traumatic ones - come lessons. I know you probably hear this a lot (I did too) but it bears repeating. No one suffers more than you when you fall sick. It’s just not worth it. So please please please make your health a priority in 2019, even more than your career. Eat well. Sleep well. Move a lot. Oh and drink less.
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Through this experience I’ve also came to appreciate my close friends and family even more. They were my saving grace. Of all texts I’ve received, this is the most reassuring one: “Eric, you can call me any time even in the middle of the night. I’ll pick up.” A very close friend would even drop by after work to keep me company cos he knew I was afraid to be alone. Another even pulled me out of bed and took me to the carnival just to cheer me up. And I did! Winning that big unicorn would have speed up my recovery though haha.
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Prayers made all the difference. I had two kingdom friends who got a church leader to pray for me. It was a small gesture that meant the world to me. The worship songs, the word, the overall vibes brought so much rest to my soul.
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So yes I’m back! Body is still recovering but I’m happy I survived. Remember, your health matters! Treasure it with your life!
